nowadays

The silliest thing you can do nowadays is like someone add you as a friend on fb, you've noticed it but ok 'i'll just confirm later'...then in the middle of driving somewhere at the traffic light, looking at fb again, just as the light turns green, you press 'confirm' and step on the pedal...

AFG2015

Let's get misgendered this weekend at our booths (61) at Art For Grabs, 
wear the sash, take a snapshot, donate and win the Miss Gendered pageant 2015 heart emoticon heart emoticon heart emoticon 
‪#‎artforgrabs2015‬ ‪#‎booth61‬ ‪#‎shikacorona‬ ‪#‎jelleneeva‬ ‪#‎tabungsrs‬

Adik Rock

Adik rock: Chiko maknyah pertama yang Adik kenal yang x suka Ziana Zain...
S: A ah, Dulu Shieko sukew kawan dengan abam-abam rockers...gichew...

AFG2015

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AFG2015

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AFG2015

its the first Artforgrabs event for this year...with event like this the only time i can make a living, selling art of course, demi sesuap nasi...

decision

...and now to choose just 1 design to print into tote bags....decision, decision...

"Bila nak terbang lagi?"

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10 March 2015

Not too long ago, i remember accompanied Kajol to ChowKit and visited an elderly Kelantanese maknyah who's living in one of the *tangga (Staircase). She was a bit sick and greeted us and keep apologizing for the messy room. I keep saying its ok, thanks for having us. She's living there for ages. And she got diabetes.  After i sit my ass down and introducing myself, she kept saying i look like matsalleh (white foreigner), i get that a lot from other people I'm not sure how to react every time i hear that, and the first thing she utters when she saw me, "Bila nak terbang lagi?"

"When are you going to fly away?"…the word echoes loud and last quite long, whatever she said after that just becoming blur and fade away quite quickly. "Kenapa tak terbang lagi?" keep echoing in my mind till we get back to the car and even until now the sound bit glued to my maambrane….

for us its quite normal to discuss about leaving the country, migrate, seek asylum, many have sacrifice their friends and families,...i thought some of the pioneer maknyah who's already settled down else where outside the country in Australia, U.S., Europe,...they're already build their life outside there, and wonder if the fate of the maknyah here, do they still have the desire...
many just left the country looking for greener pastures, having their own family, living with their partners without having to think too much about the risks being in a public spaces, violence, etc....... "Bila nak terbang lagi?" sounds more like when is your time to leave for the greener pastures...

je suis Ms.Manis

je suis Ms.Manis

seed

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breathe / nafas 1

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breathe / nafas 2

http://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-17809/7-tips-for-dealing-with-life-if-you-cant-afford-a-therapist.html

breathe / nafas 3

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no fb for breakfast

*In this age and time, most of us would check fb first thing in the morning after a few scrolls on the news feed, comments, rants and bitchings, personally i often end up emotionally destabilized and need some quiet dark corner for realignment. #Notetoself #stayawayfromthestaticscreen #nofbforbreakfast #fbdiet

competition...

Just now a friend pass me a link to an art competition....Looks tempting,...but 1 thing my friend didn't notice is that us transwomen from Malaysia, usually don't participate in a competition like this unless at the end of the day you don't have to show your face.

I feel tempted to join but there's a horrible thought that my i.c. name would be displayed which is a male name and coming out in public for publicity...ok, probably a bad idea....i'll pass...
#justathought

up up up

once in a while, it came back,....& the only way to go when you hit rock bottom... is up, up & up
#depression #notetoself

http://lifehacker.com/how-to-stop-hating-yourself-and-start-down-the-path-to-1688096718?utm_campaign=socialflow_lifehacker_facebook&utm_source=lifehacker_facebook&utm_medium=socialflow